Jul 30, 2007

Predestined us for adoption

For a little over three years, my husband and I have been trying to get pregnant. I've been asking the LORD, "What are you trying to show me? What do you want me to learn from this trial?" I haven't figured it out yet...at least not completely, but I do know it is for my own good. Praise the LORD that He has given me this attitude (today) because I do spend a lot of my time sinning because I am impatient and want a child now. This is one thing that I cannot have any sort of control over, since it is the LORD who opens and closes the womb. (Believe me, I already know He is omnipotent, but still I sometimes think I can have the control).

Recently, however, I've been thinking more and more about adoption. The idea of was always a last resort to me. I had no desire or want of a child that was not my own. Selfishly, I told my husband, "If we can't have kids biologically, then I don't want them at all." But slowly, the LORD has been changing my heart. Some friend's at church reminded me that I've been adopted into Christ's family.
" He chose us in him before the foundation of the world, that we should be holy and blameless before him. In love he predestined us for adoption as sons through Jesus Christ, according to the purpose of his will, to the praise of his glorious grace, with which he has blessed us in the Beloved." (Ephesians 1:4-6)

Amazing isn't it? Maybe He has closed my womb because He has a child waiting for us to adopt. Adopting doesn't mean we've given up, it means we could be a part of redeeming a child from a life without a family...the LORD has blessed us with becoming a part of His redemption plan!

I've learned so much these part few years. I cannot pinpoint the exact day of my salvation, but I believe I've only been saved for about 2 years. I've only had the assurance of my salvation for about 8 months. I cannot thank Him enough for leading me down paths of struggles, through joys and sorrows, into dark days and into the joy of the morning. He's taught me that He will not necessarily change every situation in the way I am wanting, but instead, change me in the midst of the situation! He's been a faithful husband, a perfect companion. I am truly blessed to be known by Him. I pray that He will continue to lead my heart down the path of adoption. I've been asking Him to show me what to do. It seems so overwhelming, but if it is His will, I know it will work out. After all, I am being lead by the Hand of my redeemer, why should I be afraid?

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John Piper: Adoption: The heart of the Gospel
(Sent to me by a dear friend who has seen God's work in her life through the adoption of their son from China)


ann_in_grace said...

Have patience and trust. Sometimes things happen for a reason. I became a mother when I almost gave up any hope, at the age of 36. Adoption does not exclude biological children - it often makes them possible, relieving the emotional stress and anticipation.
May God Bless Your decision - whatever it is. For His Glory!

ukrainiac said...

You seem to have been taught well in biblical truth -- some people NEVER have assurance of salvation! You're wise to be asking God what He wants to teach you through this time.

Living in Ukraine, we've met many fabulous couples that have adopted children from here. I'd be happy to put you in touch with any of them!

May God continue to lead you...

Samantha said...

Thank you Ann for your encouragement. And thank you ukrainiac also. I'd love to be put in touch with some people who know more about the adoption process than I do.


Nate said...

Hey Samantha,
Let me put some ease in your mind on one part of adption. We adopted my son about five years ago. He is our second child, the first being natural. There is absolutely no love lost between the two. Babies just have a way of grabbing your heart and not letting go. If you choose to adopt, you will love the baby as fiercely and wonderfully as if they came from you.