Last night I had this brilliant idea that I would mash a bunch of banana and olive oil, spread it all over my hair, and do a deep conditioning so that my hair would be shiny and pretty. Well, I don't know if you've ever tried to mix oil, banana and hot water, but it doesn't really like to wash out. I washed my hair almost 10 times and had to sit on the floor with my head tipped over, and brush all of the banana out manually until it was clean. It seriously took about 2 hours. I have very curly, crazy hair. So it was deeply embedded in every part of my hair. There was banana all over the shower, the sink, the bathroom floor, our bedroom floor, 3 towels, all over me and, of course, all over my hair. I was on the verge of tears and yet on the verge of exploding in laughter at my stupidity.
If you know me, this is not uncommon to my everyday life. I'm a huge klutz, and I very often have many "brilliant" ideas that turn into disaster.
A long time ago, these sorts of things use to bother me a lot. I didn't know why I would do such ridiculous things or seemed to be so odd....but today, after experiencing the love of Christ, I sort of marvel at my own short comings. I wonder if God has given them to me to realize how perfect and sufficient He is? And I rejoice at the love I know God has for me, simply because He chose to love me. My klutziness, my odd adventures, my "brilliant" ideas....none of them matter. I don't have to show off for God. He loves me despite. And that love is so magnified in my heart when I realize that I can and will never be able to merit God's love for me. And that friends, is awesome.